my sister and i just shouted at each other.

and then she came to say sorry, a minute ago.

she was in the wrong this time, but i was thinking, when she's in the wrong, she'll usually not hesitate to say sorry a while later, but when i'm in the wrong, i seldom do the same. sigh. i think i need to do abit of reflection. argued with my mom over some stupid thing this morning in the car too. it was about the traffic police! i mean, how stupid was that? argh. the more you know you're in the wrong, the more defensive you get, the louder your volume, and the harder it is to say sorry. argh this is so true it hurts.

praying for forgiveness definitely helps though. :)

anyway, got the message yesterday that there's guzheng every single day this week. surprisingly, it didnt put me off, although it does sound abit draining. it was the 'final straw' for jehanne though. she quit.

oh well.

i guess blogs arent really the place to say certain things. thanks ellen for listening last night. i love you so much. and you'd be glad to know i'm okay now!

so guzheng today was fine. progressed quite alot. haha, though of course still terribly behind those 'veterans' like yuquan, kaixin... i guess practice is definitely alot better without things like promos or pw on your mind huh. :) i wouldnt know about next year though, when A'levels looms up.

okay let me tell you about saturday. we went to clean up mangrove swamps in pasir ris! lol YES. man, it seriously was an experience of my life. it was shady, creepy, dirty and squishy wet in some areas, plus there were mosquitoes and spiders and cobwebs and LOTS OF RED ANTS and dadadada.... and the litter ranged from bottle caps to biscuit wrappers to toothbrushes to straws to i-dunno-what-shit. HELLO SINGAPOREANS PLEASE STOP LITTERING!!! i have no idea where all those litter came from. hunkiat said they could have been washed up by the sea. i'm thinking they were thrown by people from the cycling track above. whatever. THOSE BASTARDS.

swamps are disgusting areas. but i felt a sense of accomplishment after finishing. plus i didnt get bitten by anything at all, maybe due to the double layer of protection on my skin rendered by both sunblock and insect repellent. :B lol.